The Days That Passed...

2008-04-09T20:55:00.003+08:00

My activity

原来我不帅（完！）
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My memory

五月天

好快喔，一个多月的假期就快结束了。这也许是我最后一个学校假期了。开学就三年级了，真的好快啊。总是觉得好像踏进学校不久。同学好的好，走的走，散的散。以前的我或许会很难过，可能还会哭得像个小孩吧。但现在的我好像失去了知觉。也许是长大了，真的明白很多事不能如我们所愿。烦恼总是没有结尾，好无聊喔。看开吧，这世界就会变得更大……

2008-04-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

My activity

原来我不帅（9）

2008-01-12T19:50:00.000+08:00

为什么寂寞总是要来陪我们？

2008-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Arrival of 2008...

2007-09-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

Not everything is to be in black and white.
Sometimes, some things
are just beyond black and white,
secret~...
-Linn-

“愛的力量大到可以使人忘記一切，卻又小到連一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容納”

爱你我慢不下来没有哪一天例外
跟自己比快我会赶上你未来

2007-09-29T20:10:00.000+08:00

9月28日（***）：
Went to Tampinese Ikea wit Joanne.. The food there nice!.. Yum yum.. After tat went to Tampines shopping mall walk walk..

2007-09-26T19:55:00.000+08:00

九月份的假期。。
五月天。。

9月24日（**）：
Tom and Jerry ^2...

9月25日（***）：
Went to Parkway wit Joanne.. Plan: 2hrs shopping time~.. Bought things from Watsons.. Hehe.. Actuali didn intend to buy anything de.. Bt den... Hehe.. Can keep for later use.. So... =B.. We also shopped Supermarkets.. Haha, tat's quite fun... Yum yum.. Bought mashed potato~.. Den after tat, we had our dinner.. We ate Abalone noodle wor~.. Den saw my fren again.. Haha.. After tat we went to East Coast.. There, i saw my the other fren, JF.. Actuali we wanted to play candle.. Bt the wind was too strong there.. So we jus sit and chit-chat... We saw a man standing near the beach, we tot... Lol... Damn funny la =B... <3

我说不清我哪里好，但我相信每个人都有自己的优点和缺点。只是在于我们怎么收和放。我知道我自卑感常常在作祟，但总比那些常常说人是非，自以为自己很‘漂亮’，不不不。。应该说高‘贵’来得好多了。

2007-09-23T19:10:00.000+08:00

九月份的假期。。
五月天。。

9月22日(***)：
Went to Chinese Garden wit Joanne to see latern.. Nice nice.. Happy n warm day...

9月23日(**):
At home slack...

2007-09-21T14:00:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日。。
五月天。。

9月20日（*）：
婚宴……

9月21日（**）：
在家休闲……

2007-09-20T17:55:00.000+08:00

Damn fucking bad mood...

2007-09-19T11:55:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日。。
五月天。。

9月17日（**）：
Went to Jo hse...

9月18日（**）：
Slack at home...

9月19日（*）：
当你寂寞时，刚好身边的人都不在。。人生就是有这种笑话……

2007-09-19T11:30:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日。。
五月天。。

9月16日（**）：
Mooncake making.. Nva wan to make mooncake again.. NVA..

1st try failed...

2nd try..

The nicest I can make..

The result of my sis and mine..

2007-09-15T20:40:00.000+08:00

My tibits and sweets...

2007-09-15T20:35:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日。。
五月天。。

9月12日（***）：
和Joanne去Marina Square看电影，第19层地狱。是不怕的，都没鬼的。然后就走走吃吃。我们叫了一盘鱼饭，好好吃喔。那鱼很大条。两人吃一份很饱耶。真划算。然后晚了，就到Esplanade聊聊天，看看风景。。。

9月13日（**）：
Slacking day...

9月14日（***）：
和Joanne去Parkway and East Coast... 我们逛逛店，逛逛超级市场，好开心喔。我们的晚餐吃了鲍鱼面！Fried pyster and sugarcane wit plum! 好丰富喔。。好丰富喔。。然后晚了，我们到东海岸吹吹风。好舒服耶。是开心的一天。。

9月15日(**):
Data translation...

2007-09-11T19:55:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日。。

五月天。。

9月10日（**）：

整理房间。。还是很乱。。呵呵。。。

9月11日（***）：

在Youtube看Tom and Jerry卡通片。好可爱喔。。还有看终极一家。。

2007-09-09T17:15:00.000+08:00

我的糖糖。。

2007-09-09T17:10:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日。。
五月天。。

9月7日（**）：
打扫房间。。

9月8日（***）：
离子烫。。

9月9日（**）：
胃痛。。在家休息……

2007-09-07T16:10:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日。。
五月天。。

9月6日
DAY 6（****）：
昨天到J的家拿东西。东西东西东西……她从香港买了好多好多东西给我这位她最亲爱的小猪。有逛街包包，哆啦A梦糖糖，T-shirt 等。哇，开心开心。。可是，也有一点点伤心，因为她买的裤我穿不下。怎么可能？明明每次都穿M SIZE的。。不会又长肉了吧？
然后也有告诉她她不在的时候有发生什么事，还有诉苦放在心上的小事。啊，那可舒服多了。总而来说，昨天很开心，幸福……

好像永远和你这样……

2007-09-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日。。

五月天。。
DAY 5（**）:
今天，我呆在家里整理衣柜。是乱的耶。很多衣服都没什么穿了，该循环了。这样不但不浪费，而且还很环保。哈哈……就这样，整理了一整个下午。在整理的时候，偶尔会看看电视，听听音乐，睡睡觉。嗯……总而来说，今天是个平淡的日子……

Are you thinking of me?..
Loneliness is all round...

2007-09-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

五月天。。

我的零食和糖果。。

你一个，我一个。。

乐观，是开心的钥匙……

2007-09-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

I guess "I believe" is the key to make everything seems alright.. No other way can make me feel better...
When everything seems going on smoothly, loneliness does come...

2007-09-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日……

DAY 4(***):
Went out wit Huixian today.. Was damn last min decision -_-Zzz.. Cos of tat, I ended going out w/o having a proper breakfast.. Met her at Bugis.. We shopped Bugis Junction 1st.. Got slight changes since the last time I went there.. Saw Eric wit his gf.. Den we went to Bugis Street, OG, & back to Bugis Street again... Was already VERY hungry den.. Planned to walk to Marina Square @.@, hungry hungry.. Wanted to faint @.@... When we reached Suntec, I can't wait any longer... I requested to eat 1st.. The food was VERY nice, mayb I too hungry, tat's why, haha... Proceed to Marina Square, Esplanade sit sit, talk talk('suan').. Den home sweet home... Hm... A fine day wit her...

My blogging since so bored nowadays... Mayb shd change back to Chinese : j..

1 more day...

2007-09-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

快点回来吧。我生病了……

2007-09-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日……

五月天。。

DAY 3(**):

Shoes tidying... Washed 2 pairs of shoes, recycled 6 pairs of shoes, hoho... Played com, slp, listened to songs etc... OMG, my sch xiao hua xiao cao abit disappointing sia... OMG, -_-... Was very excited abt it... Bt after watching it I was like... Oh my.. Even my fren said tat girl quite pretty one also... Argh... No words to describe any further...

2007-09-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

九月份的假日。。。

DAY 2 (***):

Went to relative's hse to see babies.. All so cute.. Think when I was a baby, I also very cute de la, hehe... My relative's hse was damn far~.. At Sambawang.. Was wanting to vomit in my cousin's car, giddy~.. Overall was a fine day...

感觉你好像去了很久。。留下我在思念……

2007-09-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

九月份的假期。。。

DAY 1 (***):

Went to Orchard wit Meipeng.. A simple & nice day wit her...

Haha.. Saw Huixian at Taka fair.. Busy woman...

What are u doing nw?.. My dear... Hav I been missed?..

2007-08-11T21:25:00.000+08:00

小人物。。

如果在你的24小时里，有一分钟是让你想起我的，我已经很满足了。。

离开地球表面是一种解脱。。。

只有你能上天堂
我到不了那里
只要想念没改变
不管多远
我会在你心里面

2007-07-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

亲亲。。。0713

小手拉大手。。。0724

2007-07-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

五月天。。

如果前方的路很艰难，你还愿不愿意陪我一起走？。。。

小猪铃脾气坏坏，一点都不可爱。。。

2007-07-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

07.07.07.. 100年才有一次。。100年的今天我以不在了。。

2007-07-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

30 June 2007, Saturday...

Went to NDP rehearsal...

:) 5-yr-old ah boy dye hair.. Cool... Ah boy ah! My dear :)..

Hehe..

I'm eating.. Yum yum... :)

2007-06-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

五月天。。

哎哟。。这几天都很累耶。黑眼圈越来越深，@.@。。熊猫熊猫熊猫猫。。。~都一直在温书，希望能读多少是多少。。。

哇。。天气实在热得受不了。。风扇开了第二号我还是会流汗。。~就希望我不会病倒啦。。

就写到这吧，晚安。

其实很多人都不知道为什么他们要活着。。有些事生来就不公平。。

2007-06-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

These few days hav been very stressed up at home studying for exams.. Nt much time left.. I study and study and study.. But it seems no ending to it.. Can't possibly finish everything nw.. Hav to study wat I FEEL is impt.. Tis is the only way nw.. Or else I tink I'm going crazy..

五月天。。

别怕别怕，凡是心里都有五月天陪伴着我。别人怎么想根本不干我的事。最重要是我自己了解自己知道什么，不知道什么。

Calm...

2007-06-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

五月天。。

前天，姐姐放工回家时，看见隔壁邻居的神像盖上一条红布。进家门就告诉我。我们都不知道为什么，而且觉得怪怪的。所以就到厨房问妈妈。原来隔壁的老婆婆过世了。我听了愣住了。心里突然感到悲伤起来。我还记得，在我上小学的时候，老婆婆为人很开朗，常常会在附近散散步。可是有一天她在家里跌倒，就再也没好起来，必须依靠轮椅。那天起，老婆婆就再也没踏出家门一步。就这样过了好多年，我都升上理工学院了。就有那么一次，我看见她的家人把她推了出来要送她去医院。我和他们搭一样的电梯，我真的被吓一跳。老婆婆整个人瘦了一圈，她根本就认不得我了。也许老婆婆这么一走，对她和她的儿子是一种解脱。毕竟，外面的美景她以不能享受，只能被病痛缠着。

唉，不知道什么每次听见有人以不在，我就会难过。不管是认识或不认识的，都难过。上个星期六，Huixian告诉我她一个朋友过世了，我也有点难过（虽然我根本不认识她朋友）。她朋友才26岁耶。

原来爱身边的人要很勇敢，因为你要有勇气去接受他们会离开你的那一天。。。
我没有勇气，也很怕面对现实。。。

天使，
请保佑我身边的每一个人，特别是我爸爸和妈妈。。

2007-06-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

五月天。。

今天头一直一阵一阵疼，难受死了。脑袋不知道是不是要坏了。有什么地方可以修理脑袋啊？我的Lavender Peace Land, : j... 等一下就去。虽然头疼，但还是有拿书出来温习耶。够乖吧（读了头更痛……-_-) 今天读了Thermofluids的第一课。嗯……蛮难理解的。虽然知道自己读书比别人慢，但我有用心耶，是真的。嗯……所以总而来说，今天只看了那一本。听起来好像没读什么，可是要学和记的东西可不少耶。然后就玩玩电脑，听听歌，传传简讯，看看电视……就这样，一天又要过去了。。

好了，就聊到这吧。

晚安。

When the dreams fall away
and the promises is forgotten
will there still be someone there
for me

2007-06-10T23:15:00.000+08:00

五月天。。

休息的时间总是过的特别快。两天没有书的感觉只有一个字可以形容，“爽”！人放松多了，心也平静多了。嗯，明天又是星期一，要温习一下功课了。唉，加油我吧。就写到这，姐姐也要用电脑。

晚安。

2007-06-10T13:00:00.000+08:00

五月天。。

我常常会想，我在朋友的心目中是个什么样的人。是不是不怎么样？不友善？心地不好？说话常常伤到别人？。。。:S, 想着想怎么想到这么多不好一面的我。下了我。好的我我却想不到。是真的想不到，还是真的没有？:S, 应该是第一个可能性比较高。哈哈，安慰自己一下嘛，讨厌……

我在朋友心目中到底是个怎样的人啊？今天心理测验为我解答吧！:)

無憂無慮的天真派
“你是一個沒心眼的人 (好耶)，想法單純（啊！那不是很容易被人骗？），凡事都不會有計劃或想太遠（嗯……计划倒是没有啦。也不会想太远啦，只是会想太多，哈哈。。），屬於今朝有酒今朝醉的類型。原則上，你的朋友都會滿喜歡你，只是有時候你的天真可能會為別人帶來一些不必要的麻煩，只是你常常自己都搞不清楚（真的耶。对不起喔……）。”

2007-06-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

Today Maths test.. Hm.. Was ok lo cos got copied abit.. Hehe.. It's quite bad but I don reali noe how to do so... Somemore I couldn't concentrate doing cos ppl keep asking me.. Argh, made me abit panic.. Den after tat acc her to her new hse to do sth.. Her mother was sick.. Quite serious I tink.. Then chit-chat in the new hse for awhile.. Poo poo... Then reached home mum nag nag nag.. -_-... After finishing my dinner, when to fren's hse to take sth.. Came back bathed... Like tat lo.. Haha..

五月天。。

又到了跟你聊心事的时间了。。嗯……该说什么呢。。让我想一想。对了，我两个星期不用上课耶。。因为是用来准备考试的。。唉。。有好多东西都学不懂，怕怕耶。又找不到人诉苦，说了又会被人挖苦，还是不说比较好。说了也没人信，还是自己安慰自己吧。至少在家哭没人看见。哈哈。。明天给自己休息一整天。希望能让我的心平静下来。~

你可不可以不哭了？很丢脸耶。我自己都受不了……

2007-06-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

Today Metrology test.. Hm.. Was ok lo.. The calculation qs can do but the theory qs, nono... Didn put in effort to study for the theory qs.. But nvm la, overall is alright..

Hm.. Today made her angry.. Cos 'I jus walked away like tat' was very wat to her... I jus feel uncomfortable standing in between them when they are talking.. I don wan to noe wat they are talking.. Cos when I see them laughing, I jus feel so xtra.. But I didn walked away tat far, she still can see me.. Then she went to acc her fren to buy things and I was in the lecture room, I was damn worried why she didn come in.. Wondering where did she go.. She came back wit angry face.. Then I didn dare to tel her tat I was worried for her, it might jus sound very fake at the moment.. So I jus pretend tat I didn feel anything.. But did cry for the next moment.. My watertap damn lousy.. I need to change it...

I m glad to see so many nice ppl surrounding u and taking care of u.. So I don hav to worry anymore if anything does happen to me..

五月天。。

是不是死了的人才没感觉？嗯……好想不是耶。。小时候好像听妈妈说过，有时会下雨是因为死了的人在哭。。:S, 怕怕。。

2007-06-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

Today went to Ye Zi's hse to revise for tml EG2131 test.. Revised only for awhile then watched VCD tgt.. Is a very touching show.. Is abt how faithful the dog is towards its owner.. Haiz.. The dog died in the end.. Very sad.. The title is "Zai Jian, Xiao Xue".. After watching the show, went in to Ye Zi's room and chit-chatting... Joanne and Ye Zi talking, while I slpt on another bed.. Then after that i woke up and joined the conversation.. Den suddenly talked abt sth sth.. But tat sth cannot let Ye Zi noe.. I donno wat is tat sth sth, bt Joanne said I gt guessed it correctly.. Gosh.. Tried to recall.. Bt I had said out so many possibilities tat I donno which 1 is it.. -_-.. Hm.. Den Ye Zi even cried for tis.. :( Sayang.. Hm..

五月天。。

嗯……可能是因为明白自己为人不怎样，所以总觉得身边的人都会离开我。。

2007-06-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

五月天。。

好累喔…… 好久没有睡个好觉了。这几天都是过了半夜12点才睡的。。唉，要忙这忙那的，忙的简直喘不过气。学校压力很大。。有时会不知不觉哭出来，因为温书花的时间比别人多好多倍。。很多都学不会。。嗯，我就是我嘛，I am who I am... 哈哈，想起光良的歌。。最近眼睛有点干干的，眨眼睛会有点痛痛的。大概是太过疲劳了。要多滴眼药水。。你们应该也很忙吧。唉，地球上的人应该都一样忙的吧……

晚安。

Everyday seems so blur to me.. Hope to dream of heaven, the most beautiful place tat ppl hav been talking abt..

Doraemon pocket: There is this machine which can photocopy another me.. So there are 2 of me, to spread the tasks I hav on hand.. Tat means my time is double. I + I can use same time to do difference tasks!!!

2007-05-31T02:10:00.000+08:00

五月天，
你有没有想过有一天你身旁的人通通都不见了？为什么会这样？？他们都去哪了？？答案有很多。你觉得是什么，它就是什么。我给你答案是他们一直在原地，是你先走快一步，离开他们。。。

也不知道到底哭了几次，只知道哭瞎了伤痛也没离开过。。

2007-05-29T20:40:00.000+08:00

Went to watch Pirates of Caribbean today at TM with Joanne, Sisi and Ye Zi. It was a 3 hrs show. Watch till wan to fall aslp.. Nt quite understand wat the show was abt but overall, quite interesting la.. After that we went to Expo food fair. Ate quite a lot of nice food like prawn chips, toufu, snow ice etc... Hm.. Tink have missed a lot of nice food cos we walked very fast.. Haha.. After that home sweet home..

Mini story for the day..
Lavender Peace

There is this little girl who always feels that nobody loves her. She made a lot of friends but none really stay by her side. She feels that something is wrong about her but she does not know what is it. No answer. She feels her life very meaningless. She thought of dying but didn't have the courage to do so. Then she thought of this wonderful potion, Lavender Peace. It is a purple colour potion with relaxing lavender smell. When you smell it, you will never wake up. You will be left in the lavender land, where there is nobody but you. You are NOT dead, you heart still beats, it is just that you would not be able to wake up back to the realistic world. You will be where you imagine, you imagine you will in outspace, you imagine you will in disney land etc... And you will be there to play around. Till the day when your heart does not beat anymore, your imagination stops and you are really dead in happiness... ...

Heart emptiness detected => 70%

留不住的，最终不是我的。。

2007-05-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

My mind is filled but my heart is emptied.. Did I really lose sth??.. Or was it jus an illusion??.. Hm.. I reali donno..

Sometimes I fel tat ppl hate me more than they like me.. Cos I've silently hurt them..

Mayday..
Miss U..

2007-05-20T01:10:00.000+08:00

Feel for the song..

这是一个让人沉沦的纪元
灰色谎言冷漠了整个世界
收拾心情我向下一站旅行
为了你找寻能重生的寓言
天使断了翅膀微笑着
美丽的牺牲
带着伤痕背负着人们
穿越圣堂之门
看到你那空洞的眼神
还想逃开害怕承认
你转身
天上的风吹散了云的伤痕
我才开始慢慢的学会平衡
爱的过程伤透了我的灵魂
你就这样离开让我很心疼
我学会平衡
永远不再心疼

2007-05-20T00:55:00.000+08:00

Finally u're back! My dear blog! Cry.. Miss u so much..

五月天。。
嗯…… 原本有很多心事要跟你说的，可是都忘了差不多了。哈哈。。反正都是一些不开心的事，忘了最好。嗯… 这几天都蛮忙的。好了，累了。就到这里吧……

晚安。

2007-05-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

Went to bugis today wit Joanne after sch.. I went to return my library bk den we went to bugis street.. Nt quite fun, no strength to shop.. Only manage to buy 1 t-shirt.. 2 persons go out always seem alright.. :) Only tat we both are very tired.. Gosh.. Hm.. Very tired.. Tink going to slp soon.. Zzz..

要表达自己其实非常的不容易。。
表达得不好，反而惹来更多的误会。。
我不要……

五月天，
我没有做好朋友的本分，你会不会不喜欢我？。。

2007-05-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

If I could make a wish...

I wish for "happy potions" to all my loved ones, for I couldn't always brighten up their life..

2007-05-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

If my days are numbered, how should I spend the rest of the precious time left..

2007-05-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

说不出的伤。。

It still hurt very badly to accept the fact that I've lost u..

My heart cried from day to night..

曾经拥有，那也就够了……

2007-05-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

I took u for granted..

2007-05-01T17:55:00.000+08:00

8年了，我忽略了8年。我恨我自己为什么没有对你好一点。我恨我自己为什么那么自私，那么不负责任。我真的很后悔，但我知道已经太迟了。谢谢你给了我一个很快乐的童年。我永远都不会忘记的。我希望你能原谅我。对不起……

Dear Heaven,

Please help me take good care of him for I no longer have the chance to do so..

Goodbye my love, u always stay in my heart till it doesn't beat anymore..

2007-04-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

Dear Mayday

I was bad today. I vented my anger on my fren when he did nth to me.. Haiz.. Feel so bad, so guilty.. I didn really mean it.. Sorry.. Really sorry..

I tried to be nice.
I tried to be friendly.
I tried to smile.
I tried to talk less.
I tried to be deaf.
I tried to be blind.
I tried to be mute.
I tried to act blur.
I tried to laugh.
But why...

When u were in the dilemma, the ship sank..

2007-04-30T00:15:00.000+08:00

说不出的‘泪’。。

Sat went back to work.. It was damn tiring, cos I was alone taking care of the shop.. Wow, like tat sia.. Luckily managed it, though my performance abit poor.. Hey, it was crowded in the afternoon lo.. So nervous.. After work, went out wit Joanne to Marina Square.. Haha, enjoyed it.. Bought a necklace at Diva.. The usual price was $13, den dropped to $2.50!! Got keys, lockers n heart-shape.. Den we went to Esplanade.. Omg, there're people all around lo.. Sianz.. Can't find a nice place to relax.. I whole day didn eat anything :S.. Luckily didn faint.. I also donno why I can tah han.. Tat's the 1st time I didn eat anything for the whole day...

太多的事情，太少的时间……
我就是睡不够啦！！

2007-04-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

说不出的感受。。

我没有能力留住身边的每一个人，但我希望他们会幸福。我很珍惜他们，因为每一个相遇都是一种缘。希望他们也会珍惜我，不要忘记我。。

2007-04-23T23:50:00.001+08:00

That was Christina today..

1) "Can u don always 'shoot' at me?" and she blinked at little girl(Hm.. Little girl was totally hurt.. Nth to say but silent.).. (Didn Christina say tat everybody should try and don b shy??)
2) Little girl did say "my fault" druing 1 lesson over a small thing.. Another girl pointed to me "you're a good fren". Hm.. Wondering wat did she realise?? But little girl feel tat she's nt qualified for the phrase..
3) ... ...
4) ... ...
5) Ended the day peacefully wit ya is me and sry..

Above are jus 4 fun! :) Mini story, haha.. Story??

Mayday mayday, little girl jus wan to be nice but didn turn to b in other ppl's eyes.. N ended up hurting more n more but accepted silently.. Her heart had broken into tiny little pieces.. She needs ur love!! Pls give her ur love!! MAyday mayday mayday!!

2007-04-22T18:00:00.000+08:00

Tml is Monday.. OMG.. Monday blue.. Somemore I need to stay in sch till 9.30pm! Dotz.. Jus hope tat time will tick faster.. Hm.. Notice tat I've been using English to blog nowadays.. Somemore is Singlish.. Haha.. Abit messy la.. Hey hey, it takes much longer time to type Chinese leh.. Nt tat I'm nt perseverant, it's jus to save time.. As long as the real feeling remains, wat matters more?..

Haiz haiz.. I've used a total of ~6 hrs to do 1 piece of Maths hw from ytd till today.. It's pretty difficult lo.. I need to refer to tis n tat.. Argh, very confused.. My papers are untidy lo.. My working squeeze here and there, liquid till my paper gonna tear.. 1st topic ard so tough.. Hm..

She misses me?..

天上的风吹散了云的伤痕，我才开始慢慢的学会平衡……

2007-04-20T19:30:00.000+08:00

I'm sick.. Flu, fever, sore throat.. Hm.. Guess I hav to get enough rest during tis wkends..

I hav changed my French module to Accounting.. Jo said she don like Marketing.. So we both go to Accounting.. Whether is Marketing or Accounting, I'm fine wit both.. As long as don stay in French class.. There're only 10 students in my French class lo.. So many ppl dropped sia.. So shocked.. Den also very stress.. Cos all of dem look quite smart.. Haiz.. Den my frenz said I pang seh Sisi.. Like my fault like tat.. There's no link between dropping the module and pang seh my fren lo.. I can't catch up the lesson, is nt my fault.. Watever la..

Had been studying for 4 days but feel like didn learn anything at all.. Dotz.. Then today.. Don talk abt it liao.. Damn scary.. Anything goes wrong is always part of my fault.. My fault, my fault, my fault..

Still wondering wat she wanted to say tat time.. But I guess is nt sth gd.. Cos she said hard to say.. Wow, then i guess say out will hurt me a lot bah.. :S And somemore she used 'strangers' to describe us.. Hm.. Hope she didn really mean tat.. Mayb sch jus starts, everyone's mood seems nt right.. Plus the weather is so hot, will get hot tempered easily.. Our friendship won't b tat fragile de..

2007-04-18T20:10:00.000+08:00

Went to Wei De's hse after sch.. We gambled at his hse.. Tat's fun.. There were Jo, Rose, Yin Tian, Fauzee, Jimmy, Jin Siong, Wei De, Zhi Chuan and me altgt.. Tink tat's the largest gathering we had so far since we knew each other..

Feel so empty and lonely these few days.. Can't accept the fact tat i lost so many classmates.. Nigel, Kok Yong, Wei De, Sunder, Teck Chai, Fauzee, K Seng.. Miss their voice during lessons.. They like to shout, make fun n joke.. But nw, the class atmosphere seems very wrong..

Mayb she jus don like me..

2007-04-17T21:05:00.001+08:00

Today went out wit my classmates. Before I met them, I went to Bedok to buy treatment for my hair.. It was damn hot.. I reached there 12 sth.. Then I went to the NLB for the air-con.. Stay there for while and borrowed 1 self-improvement bk.. After tat took MRT to Pasir Ris den to Dhoby Ghuat.. (The time was still early, tat's why.. Was trying to pass time..)

Went to watch movie, Meet The Robinsons.. That's a nice show.. Said abt we mus move forward in life and nt hold on to the past.. Let bygones be bygones.. Keep the happiness and abandon sadness.. Well, great lesson taught but I don tink it'll work on me.. Haha..

Went to eat steamboat after tat.. Hm.. Feel tat the last time we went to eat steamboat is more fun though there were only 4 of us tat time.. Jus feel it's enjoyable.. But today, so-so only.. Nth much to chat.. Wow, feel like back to beginning of yr 1.. Like jus noe dem and donno wat to say and how to continue their conversation..

Sch reopened make me realise tat I did enjoy my holi.. Cos I had more time wit _, where most of the time only the 2 of us are tgt.. Feel like we're more closer to each other.. But sch starts, well jus look and u can c how busy it is here n there.. Ya, happiness is short, but tat's enough cos I really enjoyed very much le.. For nw, I mus get used to the sch environment again.. I hav to get used tat I don hav much to talk wit my classmates.. I hav to get used tat some of my classmates are no longer wit us.. I hav to get used to having only 2 classes for lecture.. I hav to get used to the sarcastic comments tat I might hear from bla bla bla.. N many many more.. Road is tough in front.. So I mus b stronger......

Argh.. Need to go bathe.. Body damn sticky.. Argh..

2007-04-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

Back to sch again.. The 1st lesson was damn boring. The teacher is very strict lo.. If late for donno how many mins is considered late.. Wah Kao.. And nw lecture only consists of 2 classes!! How to survive sia.. Last time 7 groups all have lecture tgt more fun, and more noise.. Nw.. I can't laugh too loud anymore, I can get caught easily at anytime.. Argh.. WTF..

I was feeling damn uncomfortable for the whole day.. The weather is hot and I sweat a lot.. Tat made me feel very uneasy.. And I keep feeling that I'm dirty or sth.. I also keep feeling that people are looking at me like I'm dirty or ugly.. OMG, depression??!! Tink is this few days I slp too little that's why tink too much bah.. Argh! Donno.. Jus feel very uncomfortable..

My class is getting less and less people.. And it seems like it's getting worse.. Early in the morning, met my frenz they all at Yio Chu Kang MRT.. Die die 1st thing people asked is result! Result, result and result!! The 1st one to ask me is Sham! He asked me abt my GPA.. He tot I got 3.9 sth.. But I told him 3.7.. He tot I was lying.. Fcuker! Was damn angry at the time, but jus didn wan to show out.. And he even told me he got how many As and 1 DIST.. Then after that Ying Tian, nan etc also asked.. They were shocked I got ONLY 2 As.. Keep asking how come how come.. WTF, how I know! Don ask stupid q can! Actually I'm quite OK wit my result le.. But when they asked and I also know their result, wow feel way way down lo.. It made me feel more tat I didn really put in effort for the exams lo.. And somemore Sisi asked me if I got A for my 1024, I said I didn get lo.. Den she was shocked cos Ye Zi copied mine and got a A!! Wah kao!! Why mus they come and tel me all these when I didn even open my mouth and ask!! Argh!!......

My hair is very dry today.. And this made my mood even worse.. And J, busy as usual.. She's always very busy. Half way wit us, she went to look for her fren.. Rose jus broke wit his bf and was damn upset, J need to keep her acc so tat she won't feel lonely.. Den com lesson got 1 repeat student which is J' fren, she also need to look after her cos she is alone in the lesson.. She has so many things to do and none of it I could help.. So I also didn wan to talk much during lesson.. And during the lesson J they all were laughing away which I can't catch it. (as usual...) I also can't be bother, jus wan to go home asap to bathe.. Feel my body sticky.. Oh ya, and today I also realised another thing.. Actually I've nth much to talk my girl classmates.. Jus don say abt nan they all.. Today we were having lunch at AMK Hub, and Sisi, Ye Zi and Jo sat tgt.. They talked and laughed a lot.. And it's continuous.. Tat I realised tat I seldom hav so much thing to chat wit them.. Esp Ye Zi, she seldom got things to talk to me and I donno why..??? If I'm NOT Jo's fren, I don tink I'll click wit my classmates.. Cos I like to gao zi bi..

Argh.. Heck care.. Jus feel so lousy today..

2007-04-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to Tampines with Jing Fen. It was raining heavily in the afternoon. We were wet when we reached Eunos MRT. Argh.. Spoilt my mood.. Actually we had palnned to go Escape but it only opens on Sat, Sun and School Holiday. Luckily I remember about it, or else we will have waste the trip to there. Haiz.. Then we gave suggestions.. I suggested to play bowling, she suggested to catch a movie.. I suggested to play pool, she suggested to go Kbox.. Suggestions continued.. But neither of them matched.. So in the end, we decided to catch a movie.. (I don wan to turn to quarrel over small thing..) Actually when we talked on the phone we had planned to watch Meet The Robinsons, but when we reached TM cinema, she looked at the movie schedule and said this nice that nice.. ( She had forgotten that we had already planned, dotz..) Then she even called her bf and discussed what movie to watch.. (Wah lao, I transparent meh??) In the end, we watched The Reaping. She told me was horror.. Yup, it's horror but it's about Christian thing. (Don't really under the story lo.. Cried..) But the ending was alright.. Haiz, nvm..

Oh ya! Saw Rose's bf at TM. That fcuker! He broke with Rose a few days ago, then yesterday went to catch a movie with new gf! Can't stand this kind of guy. When they like you, they will do all they can to get your heart.. But when they broke up with you, they treat you like stranger.. Wah Kao! Lcukily, none of my boy friends are like that de.. If got, I don't think is worth being their friend, cos they won't take any relationship seriously.. Only bull shit!

2007-04-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

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2007-04-10T20:40:00.001+08:00

Today morning went to school to help up the orientation. Very bored lor.. Like nothing for us to do. Just helped to carry boxes of mineral water from one place to other. Actually didn't feel like going cos Jo can't go but need to accompany a friend,aiya, so it's alright. Then it was damn hot, I was wearing 2 T-shirts somemore, and the outside one is black color. Hm.. Didn't see any handsome guy.. Dotz.. Saw a lot of foreigners for engineering course..

下午时分，我和思思到牛车水逛逛。别以为牛车水没有东西给我买耶。虽然那里没有卖什么适合我的衣服，但我买了不少零食和日用品耶。花了不少钱呐… 唉呦，结下来几天又要剩吃借用了。：（每次出门花钱，结下来几天都蛮难过的… 啊，然后今天看到童年吃的饼干，好开心喔。好不犹豫就买了下来。我还记得小时候妈妈常常买这饼干给我。：）这几天我心情也不怎么好，因为前天发现小学时拍的大头贴一整叠都弄丢了。很伤心耶。我不可能丢掉的。不是收拾时不小心和不要的一起丢了，就是还在这房子。妈的，可千万不要是第一个可能性。唉… 可是要找回的机会并不高… 今天买到童年并，才让我心情好一些。牛车水的货品真的比别的地方便宜很多耶。以后买日用品一定要到那里买！

2007-04-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

岁月渐渐夺走我小时候的回忆，害我伤得好深。。
但也让我懂得更加珍惜眼前所拥有的一切。。

-淑铃-

If there were a special box to store all our memories,
I wouldn't keep my memory in it.
Because somehow,
The box is going to be lost one day.
I would keep them in my heart unless I will lost my heart too.
I might not be able to recall them all at times,
But I know they are deep in my heart till the end..

-Linn-

2007-04-06T23:35:00.000+08:00

今天和Meipeng出去。我们先去Suntec，then就Marina Square, after that Bugis。哈哈，走多一点路，对身体有益。在Marina Square看见Wei De，他看起来好像闷闷的。。Hm… 还是觉得很可惜Joanne跟他分手。。他们俩都很好耶。很相配耶。原本我以为我们三个会是close friends，可是Wei De很少跟我和Joanne一起出门。可能是因为我跟Joanne都是女生，所以会有点闷。嗯… 不懂leh。。

刚才在Bugis要回家的时候看到Eric，很巧耶。。他说他出找他的朋友。蛮久没有跟他讲话了。

唉哟… 今天只买了一件衣服。Bugis Street有新货耶。我看到一件短裤蛮好看的，可是前几天才刚买一条黑色短裤，所以还是忍下心没买。心还是痒痒的… 这个礼拜花蛮多钱了，要节俭了。。好吧，就写到这…… 明天在家休息… Zzz

Plus...
Today got the Cai Min You autograph session at Bugis.. Damn crowded lo.. I couldn't him, am too short.. Dotz.. I watched him through others' cam video.. Bo Biam.. Nitez nitez..

As I grow older,
I learn to treasure more things and people around me.
-Linn-

2007-04-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

啦啦啦。。这几天还过得蛮不错的耶。嗯… 先说说刚过的星期一吧…

那天是4月2号，我在Clark Quay工作。那天是和新同事，Bridget。她啊，还不错吧。也没跟她说很多话，因为是第一天见面，所以有点陌生。晚餐时，我去Kopitiam打包买鸭饭，那个卖鸭饭的好像有加卤蛋给我。也不知道是他加给我的还是有算钱啦，不记得了。我原本以为卤蛋是和鸭饭一起的，所以才没有什么反应。后来我回到店里吃得时候，是老板告诉我的。我的饭蛮多的，鸭肉也切得蛮厚的，总之吃得很饱就对了。后来我的新同事也去买鸭饭吃，果然让我相信卤蛋不是和鸭饭一起的。

我店楼上有一间婚纱店，有一位姐姐很漂亮，有时我们会打打招呼。我很喜欢她的笑容，很甜美。那晚，她放工走过我店就跟我挥挥手，老板他们看见，就开始说是非。说什么我是不是喜欢她。
(-_-) 哇靠！看不出人家是Pure Lady咩! 短头发不代表就什么什么嘛..太幼稚了..我说人家漂亮不代表我喜欢人家嘛..老板GF也很不好,说什么要介绍隔壁的女生给我。说话也未免太离谱了吧..WTF lo..她讲话很不好听耶,好几次说我偷懒.. 那天晚上她去隔壁REDS做hair treatment。那个人顺便帮她temporary perm。发型好看,可是不配她..:P 啦啦啦…

昨天和我的Jo dear dear逛街耶。我们从Lavender走去Bugis,在从Bugis走到Suntec。用走的耶,很健康吧,又可以剩车费,哈哈哈..我买了蛮多东西耶。我买了一条黑色短裤,一件无绣衣服(蛮美的,好像有一个日本明星也穿过耶..),一条链等… 都很便宜,也很漂亮… 好开心喔。好像都是一直是我在看东西耶,也不知道她会不会觉得闷..而且我看东西还蛮久的,呵呵..真不好意思.. 总之,很想说和你一起逛街觉得很开心,很自在喔.. ：）

2007-04-01T23:30:00.001+08:00

Friends will come and friends will go,
The seasons change and it will show,
I will age and so will you,
But our friendship stays,
Strong and true.

- Author Unknown -

2007-03-29T23:35:00.000+08:00

My barley drink..

Some of the tim-sum we ordered..

Haha, took tis pic secretly.. Hoho.. (My friend on the right.)

Above pics are taken on 26/3/07..

2007-03-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

昨天和Joanne，叶子还有思思一起去看电影，Mr Bean's Holiday！超好笑耶！是非看不可的电影喔。。本来是要在新的Cathay看的，可是下雨，走不了，所以我们就在PS GV看。哇,如果我的假期跟Mr Bean一样,那一定是我这一生中最精彩，最难忘的假期了。唉哟，在做什么白日梦啊。。哈哈。。嗯… 看完电影后，我们去Hey Hey Hot Pot吃，那是蛮有名的香港点心火锅餐馆耶。餐馆里有很多明星的照片。东西还蛮好吃的。还是第一次把点心放进火锅才吃耶！够特别吧，够high class吧？。。吃饱后，我们就从PS走到Esplanade散步。在Citylink，连续看到GGR。Er…… 然后在Esplanade Library又看见……

最近看见太多GGR，弄得我有点性别错乱。。不可能的不可能的，一定是最近工作太累睡不够，才会胡思乱想。对对，一定是这样。。

嗯。。说说星期二吧。。星期二在Bishan Junction 8做工，Joanne有来陪我。每次她来陪我，总是觉得时间过得非常快。晚餐我们吃鸭饭。。妈的，骗我们感情，给我们骨头比肉多。吃得很不爽耶。

好了，不说星期二了，说说星期一吧。。那天我达地铁回家时在City Hall Station看见Jaramie，我中学朋友。嗯。。我们中一中二一样班，后来中三时分班，就很少说话了。他约了朋友吃宵夜，问我要不要去，我想反正很久没见面了，就跟着去。我们在Geylang的一家蛮有名的小吃店吃。Geylang耶晚上很危险耶。。我们到了那里大概十一点了，我还真怕没车回家。我们三人都是一样的中学，我朋友的朋友大我们三岁。原本以为会没话说的，不过我们都说了蛮多，尤其是我。。哈哈。。那里的点心还不错耶，改天带我朋友去吃。。

好了好了，就写到这吧。。

2007-03-25T22:40:00.000+08:00

昨天真是倒霉透了！店里不见＄50耶！一定被人偷了。。而且我怀疑是那个给我＄50的人偷的。他只买了＄2。90的东西耶！也就是说他赚了＄47。10耶！气死我了！难怪他看我时眼神怪怪的。他偷钱可真快嘛。妈的。。可别让我在看见他！害我白白赔了一天辛苦赚来的钱。。

老板也越来越什么什么啦。。请了新的员工就巴不得我们快点离开似的，对我们越来越不怎么样。。知道静芬就要开学了，就把她从Supervisor变成Part-timer。。哇，变得未免太现实了吧。静芬很生气。。职位掉，工钱当然也跟着掉啦。

前天我哭耶！都是老板啦，叫我跑3个地方，而且还是临时说的耶！早上是到Bishan Junction 8帮忙开店啦，因为星期四有一些改变，所已要下一趟叫那马来人怎么做。让后我又收到Adrian的简讯，说Ian要我也跑去Novena Square一趟。然后我就打给Ian确定一下，我语气好像有点不满，但也没什么嘛。他听出我语气有点不好，他也不满，就叫我不用去了，然后就卦我电话耶！然后我知道他一个人一定是忙不过来，就赶紧赶了过去。我到了Novena MRT,我打给他不听。害我到处找。找着找着我就哭了。

总之，这礼拜很倒霉啦。拿成绩，成绩不好。。唉哟。。

我才不信我会一直那么倒霉。。明天会更好。。：P

2007-03-20T01:40:00.001+08:00

昨天工作有点闷，因为是星期一，很少人逛街。More Than Words有一个女生昨天突然对我笑。平时我们都不会和他们说话的，因为我朋友说有时走过他们的店，他们好像看我们不顺眼。。而且点刚开张的时候，他们跑来我们的店，看看我们的东西和他们的一不一样。。很明显不一样嘛。。他们也很奇怪啦。。所以我们和他们就没说话的。然后就说到有个女生对我笑，然后还拍我肩膀跟我说有一群男生说我漂亮。我也不知道要高兴还是要怀疑。。她又为什么会知道？？

星期三就知道成绩了，我好害怕。。担心成绩不好是一小部份的原因。我最害怕的事我班会越来越少人。以前念中学的时候，都不管同学或朋友考得好不好。因为他们都在背后咒我考不好。每次都要和我比分。。讨厌死他们了。。（我不是在说和我较要好的朋友喔，我只是在说跟我没那么要好的…) 可是现在我很怕我朋友的成绩多过我担心自己的。我很怕XX会离开我。心里一直很想问XX如果，我是说如果, 不幸一科不及格，XX愿不愿意重考。。可是答案我很早以前就知道了，分明是明知故问嘛。。

呸呸！我到底在胡思乱想什么呀！我们这群朋友一向都没做什么坏事，思想简单，一定都会过关的。。没事的没事的。。还是去睡觉了。没事的。。

快乐的时光总是不会停留

2007-03-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

今天和姐姐一起到Bugis逛街。嗯。。买了一个设计简单的黑色包包。也没什么好说的。。就是闲逛罢了。。

昨天家里的冰箱坏了，冰箱里的东西全都坏了。有好多我爱吃的东西耶。怎么搞的嘛！说坏就坏。。好心痛耶。。

嗯。。那么。。前几天也都在工作啦。也没什么好分享也不想提。。
好了,就写到这吧。。

2007-03-14T12:50:00.000+08:00

哇。。有好几天没上部落格了。最近也都在忙，所以很少上网。嗯。。要从哪里写起呢。。好吧，我就从上个星期天说起。。星期天，3月11日，我和Joanne到Bugis逛街。那天是我们第一次单独俩人逛街，平时都是一群朋友一起的。那天人很多，大家都是你挤我推的。我买了很多漂亮的东西，但也同时花了很多钱。。花钱是很难免的啦，偶尔一次没关系的。嘻嘻。。

星期一又开始工作了。那天我是在Bishan Junctin 8。Joanne傍晚有来找我。那天虽然是星期一，但人却很多，因为学生都在放假。。

昨天我到Joanne家拿回一些我上次不见的照片。然后和她的妈妈陪她到Tan Tock Seng医院检查脚，谁知道把日期给弄错了。真是白跑一堂。。过后我和Joanne在Novena Sqaure逛街。我从没到那里逛街，还蛮好逛的。

2007-03-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

嗯。。星期一工作一整天啦。回到家已经很累了，所以才没有blog。那天是跟一个女生叫Wai Chee的女生一起在Bishan Junction8工作。她那天是最后一天了，所以老板叫她train我。唉。。我是有多么不想她教我。因为她小我一岁耶，好尴尬啊。。嗯。。不过我觉得她人还蛮不错的啦，不像静芬和她的朋友所说的那样不好。我也不是第一次在那工作，只是因为有一段时间在读书所以才没回去。都有几个月了，学过的东西都已经忘了差不多了。Wai Chee也知道我不是新的员工，可是她没有用“assume or expect me to KNOW”的心态来教我。她从头到尾都说的蛮简单清楚的，我也记起以前学过的东西了，可是也有一些改变，所以我要多留意些。。

昨天我一整天都是一个人管理那个cart，有点怕怕的，可是我不能表现出来。我要坚持到底！绝对不会像以前那么容易被打倒！到了晚上一个人做closing, 本来是很多人同时一起关店的，谁知道关着关着剩我一个人在在那层楼。整个购物中心变得好清静喔。。我又数错钱，又要重算。害我手有点发抖，因为心里一直想快点离开中心, 可是钱又没算好。幸好第二次算对了，锁好我就离开了。。

今天休息，在家洗自己的出门衣，听歌，还有上youtube追看我前两天错过的花样少年少女！今晚可以看电视的了！好棒！

2007-03-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

今天和静芬到乌节路逛街。嗯。。因为出门时下大雨，所以弄得我心情有点不好。。虽然有带伞，但从我家走到地铁站，那大雨还是把我弄湿了。。因为穿着高根鞋，所以我的两只脚都破皮，流血。。痛死我了。

唉。。有时我觉得我没资格做Joanne的朋友。因为我对她的了解实在少之又少。。在别人眼里我们可能看起来像很好的朋友，但其实她的事情我什么都不知道。。很逊吧。。而且我好像每次弄她伤心难过。。更糟糕的是我怎么弄她伤心的我自己都不知道耶。。问她她又不说，一点改过的机会也不给我。知道是我害她伤心的我比她更伤心好不好！有时都哭了起来。。心如刀割。可能是因为以前每次被欺负，被出卖，被骗，我才变得比较不会顾别人的感受。算了，也许我不适合有朋友吧。有时不认命都不行。。

2007-03-04T12:45:00.000+08:00

我们改变不了昨天
因为昨天已成过去

我们改变不了明天
因为明天还未到来

只有今天
就在我们的身边
好好的把握今天
过个精彩的今天

Extract from 4/3/07 zbW(早报周刊).

2007-03-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

昨天工作一整天，好累喔！累得有点想哭，可是又累得哭不出来。有好多东西需要学，如开店，关店，付款（payment)等。。。我在放假耶，怎么我还在学东西? 好难，好怕，好累，好想睡。。。

妈妈，姐姐和哥哥一定是在Uncle的家玩得太开心了，所以那么晚了都还没回来。可惜我需要帮老板的忙，不然我也可以去玩。。要不是看在老板以前对我好的份上，我才不帮呐。。

下个星期还需要工作6天耶！我的天啊。。不行。我应该望好的方面想。。有工作，才有钱买我喜欢的东西，才可以和朋友一起吃喝玩乐。我一定要坚持到底！我是不会轻易被打倒的！朋友，你们一定要等我！等我一起玩！

2007-03-03T08:30:00.000+08:00

终于考完试了！我等这天等了很久耶。我终于自由了！

嗯。。虽然心里还是在担心很多事情，但我告诉我自己这三月份假期我一定要快快乐乐地度过，这样才对得起自己嘛！

我回来了！